and no… they are not better than me

7 May

But sometimes they seem to think so. There are people who like to hear themselves talking. Who seem to achieve everything that I want to reach, but not the way I want to do it. They fight a way to the top, and they succeed in doing that, but by hurting people along the way. I’m proud that I’m not that kind of person. But it makes me think. Will it ever be rewarding, being honest and true to your principles? Does it matter to other people how you got there, once you’re there?

Do those ego’s know that people are talking behind their backs? And if so, do they care or don’t they need more than their circle of admirers? Are people talking behind my back, even though I try not to give them any reason to?

It’s about who I want to be. But most of all, about how I want to be it. Good, but also honest. The  best, but also true to myself. I guess that for now, that means I don’t get what I want. But I can stand up tall, and say that I like who I am. I wonder if they think the same…


2 Responses to “and no… they are not better than me”

  1. MatthV May 7, 2011 at 4:06 pm #

    If I don’t stay honest and true to my principles then I may feel I temporary high for whatever result I have. But in the end I would feel bad about my actions..
    So for me, staying true to myself is a reward on it’s own. The thought that you didn’t ‘sell out’ even though you may not have the desired result, makes me feel good in it’s own way.

    • restmymind May 14, 2011 at 6:56 pm #

      I know… my dad’s told me a thousand times that life isn’t fair. Sometimes I just have a hard time accepting that. But sometimes, the right thing happens… so I got accepted for my eastern europe – plan! I might be passing through Budapest, which seems to be a wonderful city…

      almost summer!

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